The Grasshopper

The Grasshopper,200? to 2/25/12

In 2005, shortly after breaking my collarbone in a riding accident, I spotted a big, hairy bay TB on a killer truck.  It didn’t matter that I couldn’t ride for many more weeks, it didn’t matter that I wasn’t shopping for a horse, it didn’t matter that the driver warned me of his unruly disposition.  I fell in love.   I bought Hopper off the killer truck for a few hundred dollars, against the recommendation of the driver.  Hopper reared, bit, struck, kicked, and generally hated all people and all horses.  But we loved each other from that first moment.

Hopper was never a “pretty” horse… He was big, stout, and hard-knocking, having raced 36 times.  As a young horse he had a propensity to stop and rear, sometimes bucking every stride for thirty strides, and a very flat, unstylish jumping form to begin with.  I took great prodding and teasing from those I loved that he was not up to caliber, but it didn’t matter… We loved each other from that first moment. I would smile the entire time and just let him play.   He never once attempted to get rid of me… He would play and play till you might be in trouble, but he would never let me come off.  He could be angry sometimes and terrified others (plastic bags and wash racks being two of his biggest fears) but if I asked, he would always do it for me.

Hopper, as I said, pretty much hated the world.  Except he truly loved me.  No one could catch him some days,  but if I went to the gate and called his name he would literally come running to me.  He had the biggest, softest eyes I’ve ever seen on a horse, the perfect opposite of the ears that were often pinned.   He would always snuggle up to me, be happy to see me, and be the sweetest horse on the planet to me.   Around the barn, we often had to have rules about who was allowed to handle him as he could be very aggressive, but he was such a puppy dog for me.   We loved each other so much—I think it was the first time in Hopper’s life that he was understood, and he was truly happy.

Six years with my best friend was incredibly fleeting.  A few years after I bought him he managed to have a stick stuck into his coronet band and into his coffin joint, for which he was predicted to not recover.  Myself, the good Dr. Newton, and the amazing folks at Rood and Riddle worked day and night on him for six months.  My father poured his life savings into the vet bills to save Hopper’s life.  Our goal was simply to make him pasture sound, and I would give him a home forever.   True to Hopper’s tenacity, a year later he was 100% sound and x-rays should no sign that the trauma ever happened.  Slowly, cautiously, we put him back to work.   He was never lame again.

Hopper spent several years at Intermediate.  He won Queeny Park Preliminary, and last fall after so many times of playing the bridesmaid he beat a huge, wonderful field of horses to win the Intermediate at KY Classic.  2011 was his year, finishing 1st at KY Classic, 2nd at River Glen, 3rd at Otter Creek, all at OI.   He completed Fair Hill twice, always clean on XC.   He was Intermediate champion for MSEDA last year, and Reserve Champion Intermediate Horse in Area 8 to his stablemate.

An important person once told me that this horse could get me to Rolex, but he’d never jump clean in SJ at Rolex as he wasn’t a careful show jumper.  Perhaps I could go buy myself something in Europe?   The world just didn’t understand… This horse was the love of my life.  I didn’t care if he pulled every show jump in existence.  He loved it and we loved each other.  As I told Jan Byyny last fall in my first lesson with her, he and I were an old married couple and knew each other so well.

Hopper was running his first advanced this weekend when, 90% away around the course during a clean XC, an aneurysm blew.   He passed away instantly, and I just held him in shock while the vets looked at him.    He was my best friend, my soul mate.  I would give anything if he could just be retired in the pasture for the rest of his life.   My vet often joked with me, “How much would you sell Hopper for?”    The answer was always that I would literally not take any amount of money for him.  I would have given up anything in my life to keep Hopper around.  He was only 12 years old, and I figured I would give him a lifetime of playing in the fields at home when he wanted to retire.

Hopper was looking at an amazing year ahead.   He was brilliant at the last Pine Top, jumping clean xc in OI and double clear SJ.   We were hoping to do a spring CCI***, and having recently earned our bronze medal in USDF dressage, he was moving up to 4th level this year in dressage.

This horse was so much more than a horse to me, he was my best friend.   He was the first face I saw in the morning and the last face I saw at night.  He was so intelligent, with a magic gallop and incredible power over his jumps.  He was the love of my life, my best friend and soul mate, the one I turned to when I was having a bad day or needed a friend.  He loved his work, loved to jump, showed up for work every day, and was the consummate professional about his job.  No matter what happened in life, he was always there for me, and always glad to see me.  For me, life and the world will never be the same.

A week ago, the world was full of happiness and promise and hope.  Now it feels like the world has collapsed, and my best friend has died along with all of my hopes and dreams.

I will love you forever, Grasshopper.


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Advanced level event rider and instructor at Team CEO Eventing in Lexington KY.
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19 Responses to The Grasshopper

  1. murphysgreytrooper says:

    Thank you for sharing. We all want to be there for you now…

  2. You are so eloquent. I recall you put into words what I could not say when the love of my life was snatched from me after we had only a brief seven years to share. My heart is breaking all over again. Remember what he gave you, and honor his memory with all the courage and devotion you can bring to your iife with these noble beasts. He will speak to your heart forever.

  3. I share your sorrow, for the samething happened to my best friend and soul mate 5 weeks ago on Jan 11, 2012. Ironically, I had my horse for the same amount of time you had Hopper. You will be in my thoughts and prayers because I truly understand how you feel. Now my Brio has someone to run in the green pastures with till we see them again. Stay strong! I still cry everyday.

  4. Thanks for sharing Hopper’s story. We’re all thinking of you.

  5. Kim Meadows says:

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful relationship! I’m so sorry for you and him both!

  6. Kat says:

    What a sad loss. Your partnership with Hopper is an inspiration, though. i am grateful that he didn’t suffer…he must have been a very happy horse to the end. Thanks for giving him that.

  7. When a lost a horse, the most helpful advice I was given was to let the grief come how and when it would. So sorry.

  8. Kara Losack says:

    Cherish your friendship and how great it was not all of us can be so lucky. Thanks for sharing my heart is with you and your boy in heaven.

  9. What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful partnership. RIP and deepest sympathies.

  10. So many people around the country and around the world are thinking of you right now. I too lost a rescued best friend before she could enjoy her retirement after working so hard for me for so many years. You are not alone. Take comfort in knowing that he passed being with you doing what he loved 🙂

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  12. ridexc says:

    Megan, we don’t know each other, and I wasn’t at Pine Top this year. But I lost my horse of a lifetime this year too, so I know something of what you’re feeling. Toddy (for Sweeney Todd, aka The Grinch) was a big, arrogant, chestnut alpha-male OTTB bastard who, like Hopper, went through life with his ears pinned and a chip on his shoulder … but he had the biggest, most intelligent eyes I’ve ever seen, more run and jump than I ever knew what to do with, and, though it was VERY hard-earned, he loved me to death and would have jumped off the ends of the earth for me.

    He demanded that I become a better rider so as not to piss him off, and I like to think that I did.

    I lost him in July to an abdominal tumour, and all I can do now is try to be grateful for the time that we had. There are other horses in my life, but there will only ever be one Grinch.

  13. Megan, I am so very sorry for your loss. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

  14. Karen Lawver says:

    I am so sorry for this loss in your life. Grasshopper was a true champion and he knows he was loved. I hope your wonderful memories will help fill the huge hole you have in your heart. RIP Grasshopper. God bless you for taking him off that truck.

  15. What a beautiful story of bonding, tenacity, love and loss. Thank you for sharing.

  16. Megan, So sorry to hear about your tragic loss of Grasshopper. My heart breaks for you! I hope at some point you can find another soul mate horse. In the meantime, take good care of my girl Ashlyn Warren. I was her first instructor and she has kind of a special place in my heart. Thank you for getting her back to being excited about her riding again. I love reading her posts. She obviously thinks the world of you and is excited about all the new things she is learning!

  17. Where are you? You went to Queeny Horse Trials, I grew up in St. Louis. I live in Southern Pines now. I love the love you have for your Grasshopper. Grand horsepeople, horsepeople who always put the horse first, and honor his glory and his/her inexplicable bond with us. I honor you, Meagan, and I honor your infinite bond with Grasshopper. Glory to the horses who love and partner with us, God knows why, or maybe he doesn’t even know, but they seem to. God bless our horses.

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  19. Thank you for your story. I am so sorry for your loss, but celebrate the relationship you had with Grasshopper! I am embarking on my journey; I found my guy in a herd of imported OTTB’s at a Western-style horse broker – he had no use for these horses, let alone any respect. The second I laid my hand on this guy, I felt it; felt his heart/spirit. I’ve only had him a short while, but I am so excited for the times to come. Every interaction is an affirmation of his spirit, and this after he was discarded for being so difficult. Thank you for inspiring us all with your story! I hope you find another Grasshopper – give another a chance at being even a fraction of him.

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